i was waiting for my ramen to cool and i found this...
Tuesday, January 08, 200812:47 AM
1. Who were you with last Saturday?
- last Sat... hmmm... with Justine the busty babe! :D
2. What woke you up this morning?
- uh... the repair guy... =x
3. Where are you?
- the kitchen. eating. ramen. hot. spicy. YUM.
4. Is tomorrow going to be a good day?
- no. and i can say that with confidence.
5. Did you kiss or hug anyone these past three days?
- auntie lina
6. When's the last time you cried?
- abt 3hours ago. i think.
7. What were you doing at 10 lastnight?
- um... spacing out? crying? uh...
8. What were you doing at midnight?
- same thing.
9. Ever thrown up from a rollercoaster or an amusement park?
- proud to say no. and i'd love to keep it that way.
10. What's on your mind RIGHT NOW?
- i am so dead.
11. Would you take a bullet foranyone?
- uh... depends..?
12. Where would you like to live?
- maldives. or the caribbean. or somewhere in oceania. hellayeah :D
13. What do you want to be when you grow up?
- your personal shrink. heh~
14. Where do you see yourself in 5years?
- married. to him.
15. What is the longest you have gonewithout checking your friendster?
- almost 2-3months? thats cos i was so obsessed with FACEBOOK!
16. Who was the last person that left you a comment?
- Amie
17. Are you friends with this person?
- love her.
18. How often do you log in to friendster?
- barely. facebook's more fun.
19. What do you like to do in the car?
- sleep. or if im hyper, pretend im drunk and totally high.
20. Do you like candy necklaces?
- as in? made of candy or with candy pendants..?
21. When was the last time you fell over or ran into something?
- yesterday. over my moisturizer bottle. damn.
22. Do you listen to music every day?
- no. i've lost my musical side.
23. Do you still go trick or treating?
- neh, never been! :p feels too damn cold outside to do that =x
24 . What was the last thing you ate?
- pocky sticks. and currently my yummy ramen. EAT RAMEN PEOPLE! :D
25. Is it the weekend?
- i wish.
26. What are you doing tonight?
- emo. space. look for friends to talk to. watch funny videos/movies. sleep and get proper rest.
27. Whats your favorite soda?
- canadian dry aint too bad :]
28. Ever moved?
- freakin duh.
29. Favorite sport to watch?
- figure skating. cheerleading. bitch slapping.
30. What do you want to do right now?
- something that will take my mind off issues.
31. Are you listening to music right now?
- the musical whirr of the heater and fridge.
32. Do you like summer break or Christmas break better?
- probably summer. its longer plus its less depressing. at least you can go out more. unlike damn winter.
33. What was the last movie you watched?
- movie..? uh dunno... but the last videos i watched were on the "LEAVE BRITNEY ALONE!" guy and they were damned hilarious! GO WATCH! LOL ROFL
34. Best place to eat?
- singapore. trust me. i swear by that man. (canadian food is sucky, unhealthy and oily and overly costly. yes I MISS SGREAN FOOD!)
35. What time is it?
- lemme check the kitchen clock. looks like 1.17am
36. What is your pet?
- DUST BUNNY! which i eventually exterminate after 2-3weeks...
37. What song makes you cry?
- depends on my current mood.
38 . What song makes you happy?
- depends on my current mood.
39. What do you like to listen tobefore you go to bed?
- my son joeljr talking to me :D
40. What does Your CD player have in it right now?
- uhhh... where IS my cd player..?
41. If you were a crayon what color would you be?
- seafoam. turquoise. deep purple. blood red. grey. black. white. damn i dunno im spoilt for choice! :D
42. Who makes you happy?
- HIM. HER. IT. um...
43. What is the color of yourtoenails?
- natural. didnt bother to paint them.
44. Do you wear a ring everyday?
- making myself get into the habit of it.
45. Ever coloured your hair?
- oh yeah. and planning on more colours to colour it :D
46. When did you last burn something?
- uh... few hours ago? my pretty scented candle :D (was it cranberry..?)
47. What flavour of ice cream did you last eat?
- havent eaten icecream in MONTHS! who eats icecream in winter anyways..? SIAO.
48. Who did you last argue with?
- um. mum? myself? yeah probably myself.
49. What's your favourite animal?
- PENGUINS. no less. no doubt.
50. If you could go anywhere in the world, where would you go?
- EVERYWHERE! uh... not so sure about war zone countries though... i still wanna live...
51. Who do you consider most important person in your life right now?
- good question. yet to have an answer. him, i guess. the reason i hang on.Labels: personality, quizzes, randominity
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it seems
Monday, January 07, 20084:36 AM
i have forgotten what it's like
to be wanted and needed
i have forgotten what it's like
to be concerned and caring
i have forgotten what it's like
to feel surrounding emotions
i have forgotten what it's like
to have an urge or craving
i have forgotten what it's like
to have motivation, a target, a goal
of any kind.
i have forgotten what it's like
to control tears when they fall
i have forgotten what it's like
to "smile through it all"
i have forgotten what it's like
to be selfless
i have forgotten what it's like
to be mindful of others
i have forgotten what it's like
to have determination
i have forgotten what it's like
to be excited over something
i have forgotten what it's like
to be full of energy
i have forgotten what it's like
to suffer from happiness
i have forgotten what it's like
to be on a hyper high
i have forgotten what it's like
to be enchanted by ideas
i have forgotten what it's like
to go crazy with friends
i have forgotten what it's like
to be sarcastic in all manners
i have forgotten what it's like
to enjoy food.
i have forgotten what it's like
to "live for the moment"
i have forgotten what it's like
to do crazy things
i have forgotten what it's like
to have an emotional soft spot
i have forgotten what it's like
to go to sleep smiling
i have forgotten what it's like
to take comfort in nature
i have forgotten what it's like
to be amused by the silliest of things
i have forgotten what it's like
to give a kind remark, or a compliment
i have forgotten what it's like
to confide in a person freely,
without having to hide my real emotions and thoughts.
i have forgotten what it's like
to have someone by my side
physically, partly emotionally
but probably mostly.
i have forgotten what it's like
to laugh, smile, giggle, jump, chatter, scream...
i have forgotten what it's like
to be me,
it seems...Labels: depressed, frustration, teenage life
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say it RIGHT.
Hello Beautiful
2:40 AM
she looks in the mirror twice
and hate surrounds her
there is nothing beautiful
nothing beautiful about her
cold to the core
and empty in the eyes
there is nothing lovely
in that heart of ice
pretty shiny blade on pretty little wrist
will you come to her rescue?
help her out of her madness
that's been long overdue
carve out those little mouths
that serve as her comfort
she needs someone to talk to
please carve out those little mouths
that serve as her comfort
the need is satiated
and she now feels pretty
and that much better
but the world is cruel and ugly
noone agrees with her beauty treatment
and thinks she needs some fixing
but who can say they know her?
when all she needs is some understanding
pretty shiny blade on pretty little wrist
will you come to her rescue?
help her out of her madness
that's been long overdue
carve out those little mouths
that serve as her comfort
she needs someone to talk to
so come carve out those little mouths
that serve as her comfort
save for those pretty glittery tears
that mark her elegance
noone has come to appreciate
the scar of their ignorance
pretty pitiful girl
i empathize with you
it was only yesterday
that i was in your shoes
in my own reflection
i see you
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